Everybody is scared of everybody else

I was walking to work today. You know how when your walking by people they look down, or look away? I do it too, I swear its the Strangest thing ever. Everyone is scared of something, I don't know what it is for other people but as far as I am concerned I am terrified of the opposite sex. Not to say I don't know plenty of girls and all that but when it comes to girls I don't know I am scared out of my mind. Women, now that's no so bad, women I can handle. Now don't get me wrong I'm not talking about age here, you can be 40 and be a girl and be 16 and be a women, its just rare that you find younger women and quite common to find older girls. A women is more mature - not to say fully but more so - they have manners and are focused. They aren't egocentric, judgmental and complete materialists. They care more about personality then looks, they don't escalate things to the point of no return and they know when you need them. But mostly they way I can tell a girl from a women is in the greeting. A women will shake your hand, be polite and introduce themselves. Girls will never introduce themselves ever. And when introduced they go for the wave hello, no matter how close they are to you. Not to say that women can't give the wave hello but they will always try for the handshake. Or if not the hand shake, they will at least present their hand, which is close enough. Today I met a few women, and a girl, I had to force the handshake on that one. That's how you can tell. But then you might say "will she's just shy". Well to answer that I'm not just shy, I am terrified of women in general and I initiate introductions and handshakes all the time. Oh that's right, I'm a guy its my job right? What happened to equality damn it. Women bitch and whine for days about how they should be treated equally but when it comes to shit like this they can't handle it. I'm all for equality but I think women and especially girls gotta step up to the plate once in awhile. Back to the walking down the street thing. So even when the female, be it a women or a girl, looks me in the face, and doesn't look down and smiles, there's no way I can ever for the life of me just smile back and say hello. Smile back perhaps, but then I have to turn my head, out of an incomprehensible fear. Its ludicrous I tell you, I am totally insane if I can't just smile back at a girl who is smiling at me. I gotta get off this damn fear thing, I swear I am going to go crazy, or more crazy. Well for now I'm going to try and put my thoughts into something productive. I'll be back later, hopefully with an anecdote to save my honor.