The Blood In My Veins
Whoa, today was extremely strange. I woke up late for work, then left early due to my aching body, which made me appear to be extremely ill. Got back here, made dinner watched half a movie, fell asleep went to class left early and watched Lost. I then got accused of spreading rumors and I realized that I got played worse then I've ever been played. Now I'm full of rage, anger that’s been building for a while now.
Oh yeah, and someone I knew died a couple days ago. That’s the 2nd person I've known to die in a month. Now what the fuck is that? I've known maybe 2 people who have died my whole life and now these young guys around my age start dying. What does that mean? People around me are going to die and bitches will forever play me for a fool? That’s gotta be pretty close. It's crazy with the guy I knew who died. It happened so fast, one day he starts getting headaches. He goes to the hospital and they tell him he has a tumor and he is dead within a week. Now what do you call that? The strange part is that I'm not reacting the way I thought I would to death. I mean, I always figured I'd be really sad, get depressed or something like that. I'm just getting mad, angrier that this shit happens and there’s nothing you can do to stop it. It's almost like you could just say that about every aspect of life. Shit happens and there’s nothing you can do about it.
Like, girls will fuck with you and you can't do shit. It's easy to think like that, really comfortable. A simple justification to not do the things you know you should. Why should I be nice to that person, they are just going to fuck me in the end? Why should I study for that test? I'm just going to get what I get and there’s nothing doing to change that. I'll meet a nice girl someday, it will just happen, I can't make it happen I just gotta not worry about it. Right? It's all fate. That’s what I've told myself most of my life. That when shit goes wrong its fate that when shit goes right its all my destiny. I even use fate to make decisions in my everyday life. "If they are out of Pepperoni slices I won't get lunch". Fuck that, that gets you no where. If you want something you gotta take it, if you don't your not going to have nothing. In life there are no freebies, you gotta work for everything or you will get shit on. I fucking know. I'm not going to let people push me around and shit anymore. Fuck you crazy mind trip bitches out there, you want a fuck with me, you better think again cuz I ain't playing anymore. I'm out.
Oh yeah, and someone I knew died a couple days ago. That’s the 2nd person I've known to die in a month. Now what the fuck is that? I've known maybe 2 people who have died my whole life and now these young guys around my age start dying. What does that mean? People around me are going to die and bitches will forever play me for a fool? That’s gotta be pretty close. It's crazy with the guy I knew who died. It happened so fast, one day he starts getting headaches. He goes to the hospital and they tell him he has a tumor and he is dead within a week. Now what do you call that? The strange part is that I'm not reacting the way I thought I would to death. I mean, I always figured I'd be really sad, get depressed or something like that. I'm just getting mad, angrier that this shit happens and there’s nothing you can do to stop it. It's almost like you could just say that about every aspect of life. Shit happens and there’s nothing you can do about it.
Like, girls will fuck with you and you can't do shit. It's easy to think like that, really comfortable. A simple justification to not do the things you know you should. Why should I be nice to that person, they are just going to fuck me in the end? Why should I study for that test? I'm just going to get what I get and there’s nothing doing to change that. I'll meet a nice girl someday, it will just happen, I can't make it happen I just gotta not worry about it. Right? It's all fate. That’s what I've told myself most of my life. That when shit goes wrong its fate that when shit goes right its all my destiny. I even use fate to make decisions in my everyday life. "If they are out of Pepperoni slices I won't get lunch". Fuck that, that gets you no where. If you want something you gotta take it, if you don't your not going to have nothing. In life there are no freebies, you gotta work for everything or you will get shit on. I fucking know. I'm not going to let people push me around and shit anymore. Fuck you crazy mind trip bitches out there, you want a fuck with me, you better think again cuz I ain't playing anymore. I'm out.
posted by Alrik B. at 11:56 PM
1 Comments:
god damn man, good for you. Tell those bitches whats what. I can't believe you got fucked over again like that (well maybe I can). Maybe someday this people will get what is coming to them or maybe Alrik will just go crazy and throw a desk at one of these evil strumpets. In any case I'm here for you homes.
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