Too Close(er)
Love is an amazing organism that I know absolutly nothing about. Passion is something I have tasted, but not fully enjoyed, yet I wonder how deeply I have actually experienced true passion, if at all. You always hear in songs and poems that "love is such a fragile thing" but I would like to believe that true love is strong, unbreakable. Does this mean that I am doomed to roam the earth looking for this "true love" that in fact does not exist? Will I find love, mistake it for "true love" and never know the difference for the rest of my life? Will I ever know one form of love at all, will I think I know love...who knows? But I think that when I encounter any kind of love, I will treat it with the utmost respect and care, and never fall back on it, and not trust in it blindly. Reading back my last few words, I worry that I am missing the point completely and I fear that my thoughts on love are completely false. But the longer I think about it the more and more I think my fear is true. Although I tell myself I am too young to concern myself with such thoughts I can't get them out of my mind. Coincidence I think is the brightest star in the sky in the world of love, at least in my case. Without it, I think I would be lost, which is interesting because many people would say that coincidence is all about being lost, then found. Perhaps its fitting for me then, that I am forever lost until coincidence finds me. Thats a bit easy though, takes the weight off of my shoulders and thats exactly why its so appealing to me. Its just like fate and destiney. If I believe in those things it means that despite what I do, my path is already chosen. That makes my life more easy on me, I don't have to worry about stuff as much because I have no real control. Living this way is the cowards way, and for most of my life, thats exactly what have I done. Live like a coward.
But with all these thoughts on love and coincidence you would think I'd come to the logical conclusion that the way I do things, simply won't work with love. So, logically I have to change my ways if I don't want to be left alone forever, always admired at a distance, but never approched. Or pitied at a distance, feared at a distanced, whatever the case may be. It is probably pertienent to my future to break away from this mold I live in, this set path to mediocrity and shame. There are many thoughts on love, many that I could prescribe myself to, which would have me be powerless to change my path, or helpless to follow anything but loves design. Traditionally, one of those beliefs would be mine. Change is in the wind for all time. I think its time I let the wind take me away, away from my concrete beliefs and my loveless future.
But with all these thoughts on love and coincidence you would think I'd come to the logical conclusion that the way I do things, simply won't work with love. So, logically I have to change my ways if I don't want to be left alone forever, always admired at a distance, but never approched. Or pitied at a distance, feared at a distanced, whatever the case may be. It is probably pertienent to my future to break away from this mold I live in, this set path to mediocrity and shame. There are many thoughts on love, many that I could prescribe myself to, which would have me be powerless to change my path, or helpless to follow anything but loves design. Traditionally, one of those beliefs would be mine. Change is in the wind for all time. I think its time I let the wind take me away, away from my concrete beliefs and my loveless future.
posted by Alrik B. at 1:16 AM
12 Comments:
1. It's fine to feel this way, some of us feel the same. The secret is to pretend you're an asshole and in it for ass. Girls find pronounciation upfront a bit too much to deal with.
2. Spell check, it's not that hard.
3. I get a feeling that you are setting yourself up with expectations too high from love. Strong love takes time and patience, and even it fades...
4. Lighten up man. At least you have tasted passion. You sound like you are trying too hard. "The best? Losers always whine about their best. Winners go home and fuck the prom queen!"
5. I hope you get something out of this. It's gonna be ok.
1. It's fine to feel this way, some of us feel the same. The secret is to pretend you're an asshole and in it for ass. Girls find pronounciation upfront a bit too much to deal with.
2. Spell check, it's not that hard.
3. I get a feeling that you are setting yourself up with expectations too high from love. Strong love takes time and patience, and even it fades...
4. Lighten up man. At least you have tasted passion. You sound like you are trying too hard. "The best? Losers always whine about their best. Winners go home and fuck the prom queen!"
5. I hope you get something out of this. It's gonna be ok.
yeah, the spelling is all correct. I did check it and I went over it and made sure that everything was ok. So either Im a dumbass and your great or you don't know certain words. Give me some examples, then I won't feel so angry. I think destiney might be wrong, but thats the only one. And about strong love fading, how do you know? I don't think the strongest of love ever fades, and if it does, its not really that strong.
absolutely. interesting. weight. destiny. "more easy" is not grammatically correct, its needs to be "easier". coincidence. Theres more, but its up to you to spell check the rest.
And as for strong love, apparently one in three marriages ends in divorce. Isn't marriage supposed to be the strongest love and bond? And you're going to tell me that love doesn't fade? It's a fact of life. Talk to any old person. Most have "loved" more than one spouse. You are talking about just "loving" a girlfriend. People change, and love fades. If you are so optimistic about love, go after some christian chicks, they are somewhat bound to you by their religion, and are less cynical about love. And even they divorce just as much as the rest of us.
And why the hell are you being so defensive about this topic? Your first sentence says you claim know absolutely nothing about love. The rest of the post talks about how you might need to change your views on love. So why the hardass comments if you are just being idyllic about certain naive societal "ideas" on what love is. I am trying to be a good friend and tell you how I feel about love in society today. I might need to be a little mean, but it is for your own good. I do not want to see you setting yourself up to be really hurt in the future. Try to be constructive instead of close minded.
The only thing I have to say is DON'T let the media's or cinema's depiction of love influence your beliefs on this at all. Im saying this because of your title "Too Close(er)". Love is individual and unique until you find it...with someone else.
C'mon fellas, maybe I'm just an insensitive prick, but this blog is getting a little too heartfelt and sincere for my tastes. Can't the next post be about football or something?
::finger points to Alrik::
I am more angry about the spelling, cuz some if not most of those words you mentioned were spelled correctly. coincidence I did check in the dictionary so I think your just an idiot. I was never negative towards your thoughts on love only your comments about the spelling. The other comment was a honest question not anything critical. Weight and destiney I'll give you the rest are most likely right and honestly, Im too tired to re check the post for the 3rd time. I think I would re-read the last few comments and then think about who is being whiney and defensive.
P.S. This is a blog not a published work, just let the spelling go and stop being so anal.
Oh, and another thing. Why can't films influence someones thoughts on love? I mean, it is just a movie but it doesn't make the material any less powerful. The film prompted to re-consider my opinion, it did not tell me how to feel.
Ok maybe absolutely is wrong
I would like to make an offical apology to everyone who I have offended. I am sorry that I work too much and get too little sleep and that I turn into an asshole. Please, I hope you can all forgive me.
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